Ramblings
of an Idle Mind
April 09
One year later.
Well, I have three GI Joe photo stories up now. Hope you like them.
A shout out to my friends at The Trenches, Fuzzheadquarters, and The GI Joe Club. Hey!
So times are a bit tough now for almost everybody. I am sure our
new president,
President Obama
will work things out.
Oh, as far as the search for my root, I can go all the way to 1540 on
my maternal grandmother's side (Stelljes).
Check out Roots Web if you are interested.
http://worldconnect.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?db=:2497990
April 08
Geesh, my wife thinks I'm on
drugs!
just because that I write and say weird things.
I'm just weird. That's what I am.
I am what I am and that is why I am me.
because if I am me and he is me,…and you get the picture.
So do people even care anymore?
I know a few of you do because you come and visit,
but there hasn't been any activity here
for over a year.
So what does that mean?
Can I come clean?
Is it something foreseen?
I don't know.
Anyway,
I am still at Ann Taylor.
Things are working out well for me now.
Had to put my guitar away. I
miss it.
Must clean house so I can play again.
I guess I can call this my Blog,
but I don't have much to say so
I just ramble on here
can't do this every day.
Had a little health scare in January.
No heart attack, but my blood pressure
has been very high. My old med just
stopped working
and my new meds aren't doing to good of a job either.
I need to get to the bottom of this mystery since
my heart is perfectly healthy.
I've written a couple of poems the passed few months.
I'll put them up someday.
I wish I can find time and solitude to write.
I always have ideas for something,
but never actually get to do any of them.
I joined the GI Joe Club last year:
http://www.gijoeclub.com
I post there as stevenlore every once in a while.
My newest idea is to write a screenplay
and then film it using GI Joe and other
1/6th scale (12") action figures.
I also made a short GI Joe film about three
unfortunate Joes who get together and form a band of some sorts.
After reading the last Harry Potter book, I started working
on an outline for a sequel that takes place right after the
events in book 7. Maybe I'll work on
that some more.
Even before book 7 came out, I wrote a chapter or two of
some Harry Potter fan fiction.
So, I haven't been doing nothing in 2007, I just
don't think any of what I created is 'Net worthy yet.
Until next time….
Steve
February '07
Here is a snippet of one of my new compositions.
It is a bit rough... Let me know what you think.
It is called To Sirius and Back.
January '07
Where do I begin?
Went to Disney World,
Had a lot of fun.
Been written up twice
Now on the run.
The final warning
And the battle only begun.
Anyway,
I am still looking for my past. Went back real far on my mother's side.
I still know next to nothing about my father's family. But I am sure something
will be discovered. I just
have this feeling.
In 2006, I didn't do any writing. Maybe I am not depressed
enough.
2007 will be different. First of all, I got a guitar for Christmas.
So maybe I will write some songs and put it up on my site. I will at
least put some original music up within the next 3 or 4 months.
See you soon.
May '06
Over a year has passed
another fortune un-amassed
What can I say?
I am just another day.
February '05
An outline.
A ship.
Lost.
A lone sailor.
Tsunami.
Not Robinson Crusoe
Something more.
City of
Deserted.
An eagle flies above a tower.
The sound of a baby.
No - a cat in heat!
a Mystery.
Where is the sailor?
Not Atlantis.
Thunder!
A Volcano erupts.
City is destroyed.
Sailor finds boat.
Sailor is hospitalized.
Institutionalized.
November '04
Where has the year gone? Elections are over and the world is
just as messed up it always was.
Oh well!
The Red Sox won the World Series....finally. Who cares. Don't get me wrong, its great that they finally won, but I'm a Met fan...Who cares. Baseball just isn't interesting anymore. Too much money, too much drugs, too many big babies and no excitement. It's all about money and not about the fans....who cares!
Anyway, see ya soon.
May '04
I am all for drugs! Not illegal drugs, mind you, but prescription medications. I like Anti Depressants. They don't make me feel so sad and worthless anymore (even though I am sad and worthless, I just don't feel it anymore). ;-)
It's been a roller coaster sort of year. I've had periods of mania where I can churn out five poems in one sitting, then periods of depression where I can do nothing. But now that my roller coaster has slowed down a bit, I can now focus on other things: like the family.
I also started to meditate. I may not be doing it "right", but I am reflecting on my past, present, and future. Seeing what I did wrong, how I hurt the ones I love, and how I can change my destructive behavior so that I can rebuild what I destroyed. I can not recreate the castle that I thought I built, but I can build a shack first, and hope that there is enough building blocks to build a stronger foundation. I just have to wait and see.
***
Did you know, that the best way to see the world is by reading a map?
I am lost.
Did you know, that the best way to see yourself is by looking through someone else's eyes?
I am blind.
Wisdom isn't given, it is made by your own hands.
I am clumsy.
***
March '04
So Lore's Lair has been back on the Web for a few weeks now. Not sure if its been a success, but I like it. So if you perused the sight, you probably know a lot more about me than you cared to know. I mean, the photos of my family and such, was that really necessary, you might ask? Well, I think so. It shows that I am a real person and a real lucky one at that.
I put up pictures of my father, grandparents, and all because I hope that maybe someone out there may recognize one and them and fill me in with some details. My family is a mystery to me. I don't know of my family beyond my grandparents. I don't know who Erwin Boettcher (Böttcher) (my biological grandfather on my father's side) or Richard Moeller (Möller) (my grandfather on my mother's side) were. No one talks about them. If you have any info, please email me.
I guess in a way I am looking for my past in hopes of finding out who I
am. I am a Boettcher, but what does that really mean?
I've known another Steven Boettcher, but as far as I know, he wasn't related to
me. But who knows? I don't.